Over the weekend I got to see my "twin" (or twin-E), Ellen. YAY!! I was telling her about what's going on with my ankle and all and I realized that there were several reasons I started this blog, and I could use it more to my benefit.
One reason I started this blog was because my friends, who live all over the country (effects of going to private college and grad school? and having really awesome people in my life who take the chances life throws at them!) kept saying to me that they were keeping up with my recovery after surgery on facebook. I thought this would be a great way to share what was going on with me in more detail, as well as focus on more positives like the kindness I've experienced along the way and on the cooking I could do once I could stand again! It still helps me to know that people care about what's going on, and it helped me to focus on positives, especially when I started to feel depressed from sitting around with nothing to do, but wait to heal. BUT a big reason I started this that I haven't been thinking about was to really keep track of my progress - to be able to look back and say, "Wow! A month ago I couldn't wear real shoes!" It's easy to forget those little progressions, and they really make all the difference! So now I'm going to try to do a better job of that for myself. And you, if you care to read about it. ;)
So here's the most important things right this moment:
Last week I started the anti-inflamatory my surgeon prescribed. It didn't seem to help. I also had a coupld days were I felt slightly dizzy, really "foggy," and extremely tired. Like I fell asleep before 7pm tired. The difference that I can think of is that I started taking this medication and also Zyrtec for allergies. One of these medicines (or both perhaps) are knocking me out and it's not ok. I've stopped both, and I plan to call my doctor's office tomorrow. Side note: One of the best things about my new job is having amazing co-workers, one of which is a nurse. She looked at the meds and my ankle and reaffirmed that it wasn't helping, probably was making me tired and dizzy, and that I should call my doctor. Sometimes, especially when meds make you feel foggy, you need that little bit of help knowing you're doing the right thing!
Today I went swimming by myself. I realized I need to keep track of what I'm doing when I go so that I can see how I'm feeling afterwards, and increase how far I'm going and how hard I'm going when I can. Honestly, I've been a little afraid to do this. I AM A SWIMMER. It's part of my identity, whether or not I'm actively swimming. You can't go from swimming for hours a day everyday for most of your life to not being a swimmer. Maybe that only makes sense to other swimmers... Anyways, even when I've taken breaks from swimming I still consider myself a swimmer. When I get back in the pool I want to go back to feeling awesome and like normal, but that is absolutely not the way swimming works. Take a couple DAYS off when you're used to training and you'll feel it. Try taking months, or let's say over a YEAR off, and it's going to be PAINFUL. And it is for me. My body hurts, but I'm also thinking about it too much and getting upset. Basically, it sucks! But I know I need to do it and I WANT to do it. So I've got to push it! But sadly my fears came true today when I tried to see what I could hold 100's on. Oh. My. Gosh. I thought I could hold 100 frees on 1:30 - THAT SHOULD BE EASY FOR ME. I can't do it. :( :( I did 3 100's free on 1:40, holding a 1:30 pace. Holy Jesus that's terrible and embarassing!! But I'm trying to remember it's a start. Here's what I did today, so I have to build from here... Also I must drink more water before I die trying to get in shape!
300 swim (free, every 4th back)
200 kick
100 pull
50 breast
3 x 100 free on 1:40 (holding 1:30)
100 back
walking break (I stood on my toes without pain!)
100 breast drill
100 back
Total = 1250 yards
It's got to get easier from here, right??
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